Baskadia

At the end

I wrote this to try and show how i felt when i realized that the facade that i put out was nothing more then a lie. The worst kind of lie because it robbed me of my identity leaving me a stranger within my self. Surrounded my the faces of people that claim to love me but the persistent question that never seemed to be answered is how can they when even i dont know me so how could they.

What I feel when I am Alone?

The life becomes complicated when you are at a dark side.This darkness is the shadow of your lonliness and psychological problem.A deadly storm seems to be coming towards you but doesn't.A time which never stops giving you pain and hard ways.All the abilities of gaining attention and moving forward are prisoned.Thus is lonliness. You feel a silence among a crowd and thirst in the middle of an ocean.You feel losing everything by mind.In a colorful room, the feeling are colorless.The taste of life

SUICIDE

Suicide A by product of idleness and selfishness An invention of lowlessness and cowardice A rythem of stupidity and foolishness A weapon of discomfort and destruction A deceitful gift of uncontended gluttons What is thy purpose? A satisfaction of the lazy and the unethical The practice of the unwise and the ungrateful A creation of annoyance and bitterness A craft of the unjust and the brokenhearted A mirror of the lazy and the reflection of fools What is thy desire? The agony of mothers and fa

Arms of Death

In her grief She recognized that all will be as they should be. She had thought she could have love, Felt she deserved it, And that in time Someone would come to love her for who she was. It took years of pain For her to acknowledge and realize That love was never in the mind of her creator When He placed her upon earth. It was in grief of the hope lost, And the loneliness that waited ahead, That she walked dazedly into the arms of death. Death cared for her more than others, Because unlike ever

Babygirl

Babygirl To my babygirl Look mommy is a mess right now That doesn't mean I don't love you Mommy is having breakdowns right now That doesn't mean I'm not down to ride for you right now Babygirl I wish I was better I wish I could do better I don't want this life for you I don't want you to live like I do I want you to be happy I don't want to see you cry I don't wanna see down I don't wanna see you hurt Mommy is fighting these demons Everyday babygirl Sometimes I wanna give up But your face says d

Nobody ever told me; being strong leaves you defeated

Nobody ever told me ;being strong leaves you defeated Death calls my name And it sings a sweet melody Like a siren yelling Come to me I am caged inside my head I am a prisoner in my own body Begging for help But my voice falls silent Nobody hears me scream "Slit your wrist" "Walk into traffic and don't look back" "Jump" Jump. Just jump And I will set you free Pain in my heart But smile And you will be just fine Hide yourself Run Run until you lose yourself Am I lost? Nobody told me Being strong

The haunting of are self

I write only of what ik and feel. So i pray that may oneday god will send an opportunity my way that will allow me to provide for my family befor i lose my self.

The Suicide Squad

The Suicide Squad image

The world

Dark poem

You are a lovaly person.

子育ては孤独なことも多いけど、ひとりじゃない。いや、ひとりで抱え込まなくていい。誰かが、必ず助けてくれるから。 1枚目はそんな思いで描きました！ 両手を広げた女の子と、笑っている猫は愛すべき存在の象徴です。 幼少時のトラウマを抱えている人や、いじめ、虐待を経験している人(筆者もその1人です)の心が、少しでも安らいでくれると嬉しいです！

The Suicide Ride

Contemplating

Feeling hopeless but motivated

The Abyss

The Abyss It was a typical Monday morning, the sun was shining, the birds were chirping, and the world was going about its business as usual. But for John, it was just another day in the abyss. He stared blankly at the ceiling, feeling a heavy weight on his chest. He couldn't shake the feeling of emptiness and despair that had consumed him for the past few months. He didn't want to get out of bed, didn't want to face another day of the same monotonous routine. He wished he could just disappear,