ABYSS 2

Lonely soul

I stay locked up in my room, in my space, in my head.

I feel like I smear the wonderful presence of the world with my stench

I knew you leave the moment I attempt to open my mouth

Waiting for when this body can simply take no more 

I would love to reach out and maybe show you this thing lodged in my throat

but it wouldn't change anything, would it?

The silent tears lost in the abyss of my heart

you would forget this dreadful existence of mine

I might never get to know why I deserved it

by trying to dislodge this pain\but i deserve it