THE WRONG BEGINNING

Bridget

       I woke up with a very terrible headache, my head was banging, cus I hardly slept soundly for the past few days, all I did was to cry my eyes out everyday, I stood up very weak, I felt like a chain was hanging on my legs, I managed to enter into the bathroom, I was feeling very dizzy, I brushed my teeth and had my bath very quickly, within some minutes, I was done, but then, I realized I haven't eaten anything for the past two days, I lost appetite, since the day I came back from the prison, but then I remembered I had nothing left,I sat down on my bed and started crying again"oh what a calamity that has befallen me" 

       "what will I do now?, who will I run to for  help?!

who is even ready to help an ex_convict like me?!", I said and continued crying, all my friends and families had turned their back on me!,..they don't want to have anything to do with me again," I said still crying, oh my life is a mess already! I screamed again, this is all I do since I came back from the prison, I actually can't stop crying my eyes out!, how am I going to survive this!, I can't even survive this, I continued crying,  damn God!, damn God!,", you said you loved me!,but you left me!, I regret surrendering my life to you!, I regret following you!, you allowed me suffer this way without saving me!, there's no God anywhere!, damn God, I said still crying.

     But then I remembered I still have a friend who has decided to stay with me, she has been the only one who comes to visit me when I was in the prison, Anabel has been a very good friend to me, I picked up the phone, to at least talk to her about my pains again!", she picked up the call immediately as if she has been  expecting my call, I smiled faintly " hey girlie" Annabel said, Good morning Annabel"I replied, how are you doing today" she said again, "I'm not fine!, my life is a mess already!, I can't continue living like this, it's been four days I came back from the hospital, I'm just a living dead, my parents are gone and even my sister and you're telling me all will be well!, when??, I would never serve this God again, not in this life!" I said, infact I'm ending this soon"I shouted, what do you mean?, what do you want to end soon?, Annabel said, "I mean I'm going to kill myself", I said slowly and ended the call, hello,?,hi?.... But no response again.

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