Baskadia

It's so sad when you see yourself in every gala of so called friends mo every hardships nila Nakita mo but you never say anything Kasi you don't know how to comfort them or join their happy time, Basta Kasama kalang sa mga nangyayari sa kanila, and that's why you feel fall behind the curtains they move on the show you are watching and you stay the sidelines of being a casual friend and not the main friend. Its not that painful to see them happy with someone else but something chilling inside me and asking do I make myself be like this? Or they want more than a mere shadow who doesn't talk

Sometimes I noticed that growing up I end up alone, for every birthday I have lighting my own candles and fall asleep after that, while I joined planning things on someone's birthday and feel happy and envied at the same time.

Browsing to the internet I saw a mutual friend and I find she's into labour, she's happy and contented, while me waiting for someone who can claim me as a friend