Baskadia

Today is February 12 ,2023 .

If you are reading this letter it means I have gone too far from you.

This might be my last letter to you .

If someday I refused to admit you as my friend then send this letter every person I met till now.

I am moving to a different town for treatment . I am suffering from Amnesia. Till now I can remember everything but I am not sure how long I can hold this memory.

Its time to express it through my letter.

This letter is only for my friend not for my family.

I want you to read this carefully.

Lets go back in 2019.

I was in a student club before I met my friend. He was a nice friend to whom I owe many things . But I never got the chance to pay him.

He was a good friend who plays a most important role in my story , actually love story .

He was in a society club where many students from different classes participate.

He was the one who insisted me to join his club, so that we can enjoy our teenage life together .

I JOINED HIS CLUB.

That was the best descision in my life I have ever take .

I can clearly remember my first day in my new club . I was very nervous, anxious and excited too. I went inside with my friend and introduced myself to everyone. The other members of the club were very nice, they accepted me within no time. I started feeling better than my usual days.

After, one week a girl came to our club . She was beautiful and sweet. A heart full of kindness and generosity. By looking at her eyes I thought that she will be calm and quiet, but I was wrong .

She was a disaster, a psychopathic in her own way.

She use to annoy me and my friend in every possible way. Her intentions were not to harm us or abuse us but to enjoy the time. Her main aim was to make a remarkable memory enjoying our days together at club.

I think she succeeded.

But I have taken her mischievous behaviour seriously . Till now I used to regret.

I ended up changing our club timings . My friend followed the same path.

After many months I started feeling depressed due to absence of that girl in my life. It was a harsh and hard time for me. Everytime I used to blame myself for taking that foolish descision.

One fine evening me and my friend was walking down the street. That was the first time I saw her after we changed the club timings.

She was looking gorgeous walking around with her younger brother. At that moment I confessed my feelings about her to my friend. He used to gave me mental support . But I failed everytime I saw her.

September 5 was one of the best day of my life as we all celebrated our first Teacher's day together at the club . We all enjoyed . Eating and drinking was at a side but I got a chance to talk with her and I have taken the advantage.

Everything was going good. My depression was over and I started feeling better. After many days I got her number from one of my friend and started to stalk her profile.

It was November 21, I lost my patience and decided to message her but I was a coward. I thought that if I will message her she will start hating me. So I took another worst descision.

I told my friend to text her .

He did the same. At some extent I was happy that I can gather more knowledge about her through my friend . He used to provide me enough information about her.

I was happy. But my happiness never last long.

One day, she confessed to my friend that she love him badly. I was depressed. I used to feel like I am dying from inside but I can't express it though my sadness was easily noticable .

After two-three days, My friend told me that he have stopped talking with her and rejected her proposal .

It was a coincidence that she was also heartbroken like me. Maybe we both used to mourn every night looking up at the stars.

Finally one day, I decided to confess my feelings about her without caring about her answer.

I confessed to her. She told me that at that point of time, she wants a friend rather than a boyfriend.

I accepted her friendship.

Within no time, we used to talk like normal couple. We started dating each other. And finally we became couples.

I thought that it was a happy ending, our life will go like this forever. But I was wrong.

As I told you before, my happiness never last long.

Her parents came to know about our relationship , it changed her life . Her smartphone was taken of . Her parents didn't allowed her to talk with anyone. The only place to talk with her was at our school.

We used to express our 15 hours daily life in just 15 minutes.

As a boy, my family was lenient. But not her. She used to suffer every day both mentally and physically.

Neither she told me that she was suffering mental trauma for me, nor I tried to understand her . Maybe just because she loves me.

Three days a row, she didn't turned up to school. I thought maybe just because her parents didn't allow her to. But the truth was something different.

She was suffering from Paranoia. She was admitted to a local hospital. Her parents came forward and disclosed her problem . At that time, the only possible thing for me was to watch her suffering.

The doctor's have found the root cause of her diseases was depression. The doctor's discharged her the very next day. But it was not a lie that her mental condition was just because of me.

I realised that I was not a worthy person to stand by her side.

I ended up our relationship.

She started crying and slapped me in my face .

After one month, I leaved my town and started my high school journey.

I have heard from my friend that she is following the path shown by her father. It may take a while but she will forget everything about me one day.

I don't think that God will forgive me for what I have done with her.

Don't blame me my friend if I didn't call you back. Don't misunderstand me that I have forgotten you. You will be forever in my heart.

Your friend.