Baskadia

I thought I was paranoid, scared of everything, overthinking everything, taking everything I hear with second thoughts and then one day I hear a saying "only the paranoid survives"

Rubbish.....

It's my first thought 'Rubbish' I don't believe that. Am paranoid about my future but to pick up my books to read or to do something that will benefit me is always so hard does that mean am not paranoid enough, right now am meant to studying not writing but here am I .....

But deep down am hoping that the little I do actually gets me far, foolish isn't it?, it feels like my paranoia is different, am I drowning in my paranoia?

"Only the paranoid survives" four words that has a lots of meaning in my case I take it to be only the paranoid makes it big time

I want to make it big time, I hope to make it big time, I hope to be paranoid