Gone
I saw you on your death bed
Your eyes were open , but you were unresponsive
You did not blink , you gasped as your lungs begged for air
I held your hand , your hand was warm
I checked to see if you had a pulse , the veins on your neck showed where it formed
I saw you on your death bed
Your eyes were closed , you were gone
No blinking , your lungs had given up in the war
I held your hand , it was cold
I checked your pulse , there was nothing to the touch
I felt a second time and a third and a forth
I could not believe my daddy was gone
I saw you in your coffin
Your skin was silky
Your skin was cold
I could feel my heart shatter again
Just like it did on the day you were gone
Tears ran down my face
I touched you
You were cold
You were in my sister's wedding clothes
The clothes you would have worn , had you lived on
To give her away , to dance with her
I saw you in your wooden box
You were ash now daddy
I could still feel your presence wrapped around me
The memory of you played over
And over again in my head
You wore your oxygen pipe like a king wears his crown
You made it look so easy
To be you
That was just how tough you were
You battled
You fought until the very end
I only see you in my dreams now daddy
Your eyes are open , you respond with a voice that sounds so perfect
You blink your eyes
You show off your angel wings and your halo
As you jump and run , with no oxygen pipe
I reached for your hand
But you were out of reach
And instead , smiled at me
I will see you some day again daddy