Baskadia

I want to love again but am afraid,
My last experience I almost died,
Nobody was close by me to hold,
Only weird voices collided inhead,

With full of thoughts on my journey,
knowing it's a long way being lonely,
Without her soft touches on the way,
In a cold war she began unknowingly,

I know the world like a destroyer,
But lately am turning into a monster,
Like a virus with a new life disaster,
Sentenced to death like a murderer.

Who can help the lost child out?
When he can't believe his own doubt?
What explanation should he opt out?
Am 99% certain of this evolution fact.