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「京大医学部４名合格講師」による受験対策講座（７０）

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead. 　　　　 （Bertrand Russell）

　大人の愛情は難しい。小さな子供なら「好き」で済むものが、大人になると情欲が入り込む。結婚したらお金が絡む。プロポーズして断られたらプライドが傷つく。私は面倒くさいから離婚してから「再婚は絶対にするまい」と思って生きてきた。

　今後も再婚はしないつもりで、一生単身でいようと思う。ただ、つい最近親しくなれそうな女性と出会った。私は女性と関わるとロクなことがなかったのだけれど、その女性と話しているうちに全てが過去の出来事と割り切れてスッキリし始めた。前に進める気がしてきた。

　ビックリ。

　人は傷つくリスクを負ってでも、人に愛情を注がないと前に進めないものらしい。

　Adult affection is difficult. What would be enough for a small child to say, "I love you," becomes an adult when lust enters the picture. When you get married, money is involved. If you propose to someone and they reject you, it hurts your pride. I have lived my life thinking, "I will never remarry" since my divorce because it is too much trouble.



　I will never remarry in the future and will remain single for the rest of my life. However, just recently I met a woman who I thought I could get close to. I have never had anything bad happen to me when I get involved with women, but as I was talking to her, I began to feel like I could put everything in the past and move on. I felt like I could move on.



　Surprise.



　It seems that people can't move on unless they love others, even at the risk of getting hurt.