I'm on my knees this misery it's truly killing me. Ive been befor deaths door knocked she did not want me. So here Im pleting to you lord save me. I need anointed, bless me with your light, I've been praying thou I feel they only fall on Def ears. I do not mean to complain but father this pain. Continues to seer anger upon my soul nothing more then painhere. Scripture states you will not test beyond what i can handle but Father Ive tappen out already tossed the towel but this demon continues to devour and feast upon my flesh. depression and addiction are what he feeds, to drink im given self loathing with a hint of loneliness. Without your help lord I will certainly wither and wilt tell I die so father hear my call. I to am your son, so I beg on knees please come resue me. father if it's not in your disgn or apart of the plan. I ask may you end my suffering and set me free, so that I may walk with you once again.