Oddballing

Evolve spirit

I was raised in chaos and grew up disorderly

Till this day I don't know what normal is

Forgive me please coz I don't know what the phrase act normal means

I assume ,that everyone just like me thinks they know everything, when they was a obnoxious teen

Being conscious means taking responsibile , actions and facing each consequence

Whether it's bad or good, each happening has point to it

No sex or relationship can fill the void if you

Our birth givers , gave us a little bit of both , war and peace with intentions that were heart warming but unfortunately their parents came out of the world war and shit so their views on life was more than just a little distorted due to trauma being a perpetual trigger , forcing me into a obsession with all sorts of psychology

What's odder is Audrey and my father is always in a argument , mostly, `over` the smallest shit

Those behavioral patterns was mentally tormenting and eventually became part of the process of me and my siblings thoughts forming

Seeking to disagree with peeps as long as it's knowledge in_volved coz if it wasn't things would normally feel boring awkward and bonds would often not last long and insecurities would sink in making me result in self sabotage with finding comfort in addictions instead of dealing with my demons but nonetheless the Lord forgives

And the Lord is in ,each individual just like how every child has their Father in they heart that beats

And nothing beats the Love a Father and a mother gives

Is how I gaslight myself coz it felt like the opposite

Hell was more like a lifestyle instead of a option given

I'm not saying our bullshit is they fault to give

Coz my baggage is , my child's baggage if i don't right now try to solve my shit

A problem with, recording all of this, i don't have coz our life is so short as if it's a trailer before the actual performance which 

Is the prequel of your offsprings coz we just a character in somebody else's story

So before you pass on tell us how you live life and how you saw it

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