A Way Out Of My Darkness

Left with only a void, consuming me from the inside 

Sharing the pain I felt was going to do no good 

I locked everyone out, leaving myself in a cold dark room where I walked around for years alone

The constant urge to kill myself kept distracting me from the real world 

Couldn’t go to sleep, afraid of having the same dream which I’ve had continuously for years. 

Dark circles underneath my eyes caused by lack of sleep,

Pale skin which everyone could easy notice but said nothing 

I wanted to play tuff, deceiving the world I could do well on my own 

But when the fear comes, I crumble to the ground 

I couldn’t be tuff, turns out I was deceiving myself all along 

I had no one to run to, prescriptions were not helping, therapy wasn’t an option 

I screamed at the top of my lungs as tears streamed down my face 

It is time to find peace I said to myself 

As I turn on the radio, I slipped out of my clothes entering the shower 

I lay down and relax my muscles, I closed my eyes 

Thinking of a world without this depression, a world filled with peace 

So I take out my knife and slit my wrists, my bathe becoming bloody 

I take a deep breath and closed my eyes as a different type of darkness engulfed me. 

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